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2011-06-10T04:54:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/MizuharaMisha

What's the best place near you to get some ice cream?

2010-08-10T21:16:00.003+08:00

If you had to perform at the circus, what trick would you do?

2010-08-10T21:16:00.001+08:00

How many languages do you speak?

2010-08-10T21:15:00.001+08:00

What did you dream about last night?

2010-08-10T21:14:00.001+08:00

If you could ask Barack Obama one question what would it be?

2010-08-10T21:13:00.005+08:00

What's the worst show on TV?

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Do you believe in luck?

2010-08-10T21:13:00.001+08:00

Would you rather be really hot or really cold?

2010-08-10T21:12:00.005+08:00

Who's the most overrated musician?

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If you had to give up one favorite food, what would the most difficult?

2010-08-10T21:12:00.001+08:00

If you could attend any concert, what would it be?

2010-08-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

What's the longest you've ever gone without a bath or shower?

2010-08-10T21:11:00.001+08:00

What was your Lastest cosplay?

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What website do you spend the most time on?

2010-08-10T20:23:00.001+08:00

2010-08-10T19:45:00.002+08:00

"A-Yo"

Are you "READY OR NOT"

Here's a "SHOUT OUT" to everyone out there who loves SHINEE~

My Heart Goes "Up & Down" when I see them~

Key's Whisper is the "LUCIFER"~

SHINee is my "OBSESSION"~

My "LOVE STILL GOES ON" for them

Who is your favourite Kpop girl group?

2010-08-10T18:48:00.001+08:00

What's the best place near you to get a drink?

2010-08-10T18:07:00.003+08:00

If you won a $1,000 shopping spree for any store, which store would you pick?

2010-08-10T18:07:00.001+08:00

If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

2010-08-10T18:06:00.003+08:00

What's the best gift you've ever given?

2010-08-10T18:06:00.001+08:00

If you were given a brand new yacht, what would you name it?

2010-08-10T18:04:00.005+08:00

How would you describe yourself in 3 words?

2010-08-10T18:04:00.003+08:00

If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

2010-08-10T18:04:00.001+08:00

What was the most interesting place you've traveled to?

2010-08-10T18:03:00.001+08:00

What was your Lastest cosplay?

2010-08-10T18:02:00.001+08:00

What was your Lastest cosplay?

Answer here

2010-08-01T16:40:00.001+08:00

Happy DEATH day... I've lost something really really precious~ I've got nothing left except my life? I'm gonna just disappear... Sorry People... Really Sorry... Take Care... ♥

2010-08-01T10:55:00.000+08:00

Sundown Festival!!

First was Tenko perf. Inbetween artistes there's fashion show. First was SUG w 3 songs. Second was F.cuz w 4 songs & interview. After School with 4 songs & interview plus birthday celebration for one of the members. Last was LMC. Performed 3 songs plus encored 4 times.

Wootx... f.cuz rocked... so does LMC... ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Best regards,
Mizuhara Misha
Sent from my MOTOBLUR™ smartphone

2010-07-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

I an envious of everyone out there that has a very supporting family.. a family that is complete,heart warming, caring and considerate.. I sincerely pray with all my heart that everyone out there.. to be happy from the bottom of their hearts.. even if its a short period.. Even if the happiness is a short period.. cherish it.. for it may be the only period in life that you were this happy..

Best regards,
Mizuhara Misha
Sent from my MOTOBLUR™ smartphone

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2010-07-11T22:53:00.001+08:00

LOL...
How heart warming can father and son be?

DAD: @alexander_0729 亞仔，你吃飯味呀？今次你番香港第一樣想吃什麼？嘩今次我哋一定要吃番一次GING! 好唔好？現在想想吓口水都流唒！好嘢唻！

SON: @AnthonyEusebio 大把野想食wor~ 我驚食到你破產JA~~~ LOL!!

DAD: @alexander_0729 無所謂咖！最多咪賣咗條底褲去囉！只要你吃得開心就得咖哩！哈哈哈！

I'm pretty envious actually...

Best regards,
Mizuhara Misha
Sent from my MOTOBLUR™ smartphone

Az Mama ♡ - ♥ ♡ earrings yippeungot ASMAMA ~!

2010-04-20T02:48:00.000+08:00

Az Mama ♡ - ♥ ♡ earrings yippeungot ASMAMA ~!

Kyaaaaaaaaaa~!!!!!!! I just found the above site~!!!!!!!!!!

dammit~!!!! I'm so gonna save moolah~~~~!!!!! been wanting some of it for ages~~!!!!

Just didn't know where to get it from~!!!!

Lucky~!!!

2010-04-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

Mwahahaha~ gonna learn this soon~!

2010-01-23T01:45:00.002+08:00

Wheeeeee~!!!!

I'm SO HAPPY~!!!!!

re-filled my two way powder (number 23) from Za.

re-filled my liquid eyeliner (black) from Cyber Colors as well~!

re-filled my mascara (i bought wrong color. brown. hould be black.) from Maybelline

bought loose powder in beige from Cyber Colors.

Facial scrub and eye serum from Kylrie @ SaSa

Dark eye circle treament from Methode SWISS @ SaSa

bought True Match Foundation in N3 from Loreal.

2 sets of fake lashes from SaSa.

Brushes and sponge from Sephora.

bronzer from SaSa.

wootx~!!!!

2009-12-11T02:06:00.005+08:00

Managed to settle some stuffs...

Bridesmaid settle list:- (DONE~!!!!!!)
1. Cocktail Dress (Black) from My Wardrobe @ Far
East
2. Cocktail Dress (white) from My Wardrobe @ Far
East
3. Morning & Evening Shoes (i gave on on evening shoes)
4. Dye Hair - Light brown
5. Cut Hair
6. Style hair
7. Makeup Style to do (Morning and Evening) - Morning - angel, Evening - smokey eye

Reality Checklist to do:- (DONE~!!!!!!)
1. Look 4 a room to rent
2. Pay Rent and Deposit
3. Move in
4. Settle Bed
5. Settle down
6. Get my health back

Emotional Checklist:- (DONE~!!!!!!)
1. Be Happy again (retail therapy)? (not in much need atm. To be done later.)
2. Cherish whatever I've got left

*last edited on 21/12/2009 @ 1106 hrs*
*last edited on 23/01/2010 @0147 hrs*

2009-12-03T21:45:00.002+08:00

I can't take it anymore...

why...

I'm feeling so fucking out of breath...

I can't breathe...

My mind's swirling...

I'm so affected...

Too damn affected...

Porcelain doll broke and fell to pieces...

After being mended again and again...

I desperately try and fix the pieces...

But...

Just can't fix it right anymore...

Not anymore...

no one bothers about me anymore right?

I'm so lost...

So saddened...

So tortured...

So dead...

Have I lost the will to live?

My answer is YES...

My Parents Divorcing...

HDB taking back the house as well?

Landlady is chasing me out...

Yeah...

Thanks...

I have no where to stay already...

I'm at my wits end...

I can't call out to anybody...

Even if I call out...

No one's there...

I can't think...

I have no support...

WHO CAN I TURN TO?

Practically no one...

Would somebody just stab me through my heart and end this miserable life I have...

Please...

SOMEONE FUCKING DISTRACT ME OR SOMETHING QUICK!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'LL DO ANYMORE...

I doubt anybody would happen to chance upon this post and read it...

but someone...

PLEASE...

WHY IS THERE PRACTICALLY NO ONE WHENEVER I NEED HELP...

MAYBE I'M MUCH BETTER OFF BEING DEAD...

2009-06-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

I thought i already told you that I wanna have dinner with you to celebrate your birthday and you said okay.
Obviously its either you don't care, don't bother, didn't remember.
You didn't put it to heart.
You told me that you wanna spend my birthday together, I immediately pushed everything forward just to be with you and waited for you to be back on my birthday.
And You can't do the same thing.
I'm disappointed. Nevermind. Forget it. Everything i planned gone to naught. Haiz. Spend it well with your family. I'm not included. I'll just find something to entertain myself bah. Maybe some sleep will help. I won't say anything anymore. Nevermind. I don't know and I give up trying. Seems that I wasn't wanted. Period. Off to sleep. Last edited 9.36pm.

2009-06-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

My world is crashing.
Did i do anything to deserve anything?
Why do i have to choose between my family and him?

I feel so hurt, so lost and so confused.
I had no idea which way to go.

He's preparing to move out.
Packing his things since yesterday.
One bag two bags etc.

I kept crying the whole night till I'm tired.
Just woke up with my eyes in a painful mess.
I couldn't stop crying.
My eyes hurt.
Maybe everyone would be happier if I didn't exist.
I'm contemplating suicide.
I really don't know which way to go.
I'm losing all my hope and happiness.
I'm a hopeless wretch now.
Guess I'm just a toy or a tool to everyone.
Family took me for granted, used my name to sign up for home phone line as well as broadband, then not even paying the bills. And now they also used my name to sign for handphone line and a wireless modem, they did pay for it but didn't clear the bills on time.
What do they take me for?!
Then when things happen its always my fault?
Has it ever occur to them that how can I get married when i'm carrying all those debts under my name?!
Did they ever think about that at all?

Argh! I'm really getting depressed.

2009-06-03T00:40:00.001+08:00

Argh! I'm really getting depressed.
I really don't get it.
How dense or idiotic can someone get?
Fancy calling someone who's not your boyfriend or no longer your intimate boyfriend and the guy already has a steady girlfriend, things like 'hubby', 'dear' and 'darling'.
Do You really have no common sense or anything?
How the hell would you feel if another girls calls your intimate boyfriend 'hubby, ' dear' or 'darling'.
If it were to happen to you, how'd you react?
Any girl would be saddened by that.
They would think that ' My boyfriend hasn't totally severed his BGR ties with the girl properly, and that girl is constantly calling my bf by those names, are they secretly going out? or the flame is re-kindled? or is she attempting to snatch my love away?'
As a girl kindly put yourself in another girl's shoes and think if it is appropriate to do such a thing.
in other words, KINDLY USE YOUR BRAIN.
Yes, you may say that I'm conservative ro whatever but don't you yourself know how frigging sensitive and insecure a girl can get?
Maybe its just me,.
But KEEP YOUR PAWS OFF MY LOVE.
He's not your boyfriend anymore.
SO GET OVER IT!
Pardon me for ranting. I have to get it off my chest somewhere or I won't be able to sleep tonight.
ARGH!
FUCK!
I'm feeling very very irritable now.
I need my Teddy Bear Hugs.
FUCKING NS/SAF SUCK BIG TIME.

Whee! 4th day at work!

2009-05-14T11:17:00.001+08:00

Whee! 4th day at work!

Ya dun want me to message you so much?

2009-04-30T03:14:00.001+08:00

Ya dun want me to message you so much?

Fine. I won't message you.

And since its so expensive just for messaging you. Then maybe if something really happens to me, i can't message you? When ya message me then maybe don't expect me to reply?

礼央： “我决��了” “比起安��、幸福，我更��要的是你。” “在没有你的任何

2009-04-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

礼央：
"我决定了"

"比起安全、幸福，我更想要的是你。"

"在没有你的任何地方，我不晓得该怎麽样才能笑得出来。"

结子：
"大傻瓜～！"　:'(　

Meow! Sun Shang Xiang!

2009-04-19T22:30:00.000+08:00

Meow! Sun Shang Xiang!

Why am i feeling so lost and alone? Am

2009-04-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

Why am i feeling so lost and alone?

Am i unwanted or something?

I'm feeling too darn insecure.

I need hugs.

I need kisses.

I need company.

I need alex around.

But...

Why the fuck do i always cry when no one is with me?

Why do we always quarrel just because i didn't pick up your calls or reply your messages the moment i received them coz i'm preoccupied by something and didn't hear my phone ring?
I always return your calls and messages be it by phone calls or messages.
I explained the reasons to you and you just won't listen or even believe.
Simply put you don't even trust me.
I didn't even do or say anything when you don't pick my calls or reply my messages.
Does that make me good to bully?
Do i deserve this kind of treatment just because i'm a useless bum at housework and that i'm abit allergic to water so i really don'l like bathing much coz it gives me rashes?
When it comes to work, you say i'm not looking out for one. But the blardy thing is i don't have internet access *i have been posting via mms from my phone*, how am i gonna look for work?
And still, Why the fuck do i cry when i miss you so much?

Whee! Posted Directly from Jia Jin's 21s

2009-04-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

Whee! Posted Directly from Jia Jin's 21st birthday party @ costa sands! Mwahahahaha! She just started the cake cutting ceremony. Lol. Friends from primary school all the way to her boy friend Wilfred's friends had pictures taken with her. And the candles nearly burnt that poor cake. Lol! Anyway! On with my take of the girl!

好烦阿~

2009-04-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

好烦阿~
心好乱~
为什么会这样~
是我变了,　还是什么原因~
头快爆炸了~
晚上睡不好~
如果睡着了,　也还会做梦~
找不到公作~
又读不了书~
想读我最爱的平面设计或是商业管理方面的~
可天不从人愿~
真的好难阿~
五年了,　我努力了五年了~
还是没进展~
是时候放弃了吗?
我好不甘心~
对于那些能继续读书的人,　是即嫉妒又羡慕~
我好恨阿~

Baby alex i'm scared

2009-04-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

Baby alex, i'm scared of sleeping alone in this pitch dark room.
Darling, please be home quick.

*p.s. I know that's impossible, you'll only be back on the 30th*

Stupid saf's fault.

2009-04-08T14:00:00.001+08:00

Darling hubby has gone to taiwan for a NS exercise... Hope everything goes well... Praying that he returns safe and sound... Well... Haiz... Anyone has any jobs to intro please tell me... Thanks... Currently jobless already... Contract ended...

2009-04-03T01:56:00.000+08:00

Regards,
Misha aka Kelly

2009-03-30T17:40:00.000+08:00

All the different photos put together~

A Group Photo~! (o^.^o)

This Drink is On The House~!!!

I Love this Cake~!!!!!! <3333

Yesh~!!!!

I got my bdae celebration pics~

*taken from joy's blog*

>.<

2009-03-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

just celebrated my 21st bdae~

thank you girls for celebrating with me~

thanks to darling for being with me on my bdae although its a little boring~ =x

hahaha~~~~

i will be changing my blog wallie soon~

hopefully by today~ since i finally get to touch a com~

and sorry for not updating for like months already~

>.<

do forgive me~

lol~

and anyway, tata~!!!
i'm off to do my blog wallie~!!! ^.^

2008-09-24T00:55:00.003+08:00

DAMMIT~!!!!

SOMEONE IMPERSONATED ME ON IRC~!!!!

AND GAVE GUYS MY NUMBER~!!!!

WTF?!!!!

AND SO FAR I'VE RECEIVED SMS-ES FROM LIKE 3 PEOPLE CLAIMING THAT THEY HAD SEEN MY PHOTO AND HAS/HAD CHAT WITH ME IN IRC~!!!!

WTF?!!!!

IT'S BEEN 1 DAMN YEAR SINCE I'VE LOGGED IN DAMMIT~!!!!

I really have to find that asshole son of a bitch ASAP~

STUPID IMPERSONATOR~!!!!

2008-09-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

【Together When… 】
浜崎あゆみ
作词：浜崎あゆみ
作曲：Kunio Tago

僕達は心に同じ/ 我们虽然在心里留下了
伤迹を残しながら/同样的伤痕
背を向けたまま振り返らずに /却仍然背对而行没有回头
そっと强く歩き出しました /只是更用力的向前迈步

変わらないひとつのものを /我曾经相信我找到了
见つけたと信じていた /永恒不变的一样东西
ふたりはそれが変わっていくのを /我们两个人因为感觉到了它在改变
感じて一歩离れた /而分开了一小步
やがてさらに一歩离れた/终于再次分开了一步
伤つかない様に /为了不受到伤害

ありがとうって言いたかった /想要说出谢谢你
ありがとうって言えなかった /却没能说出谢谢你
だってそれじゃまるで永远の /是因为那就如同永远的
サヨナラみたいで悲しすぎるから /再见一般太悲伤了
いつかまた僕は僕に生まれ変わって /如果有一天我能以我的姿态重生
君を探す旅に出るんだろう我会踏上寻你的旅途吧

ある日ふとした瞬间に /某一天在那偶然的一刻
自分で选んだはずの /必定是我自己做出了选择
新しくて见惯れぬ景色に /对于全新却又陌生的景色
少し戸惑っていたら /若是稍感不知所措的话
まるで君のような优しい /就有如同你一般
风が吹き抜けました /温柔的风吹过

爱してると言いたかった /想要说出我爱你
爱してると言えなかった /却没能说出我爱你
だけどそれは僕の最大の /但是感觉那就是像是我最大的
嘘であり真実だった様な気がする /谎言亦是真实一般
いつかまた僕は僕に生まれ変わって /如果有一天我能一我的姿态重生
君を探す旅に出るんだろう /我会踏上寻你的旅途吧

ありがとうって言いたかった /想要说出谢谢你
ありがとうって言えなかった /却没能说出写你
だってそれじゃまるで永远の /是因为那就如同永远的
サヨナラみたいで悲しすぎる /再见一般太过悲伤了
爱してると言いたかった想要说出我爱你
爱してると言えなかった /却没能说出我开你
だけどそれは僕の最大の /但是感觉那就像是我最大的
嘘であり真実だった様な気がする /谎言亦是真实一般
もしも别の谁かに生まれ変わっても /即使有一天我转世成为了另外的一个人
君を探す旅に出るから/我也会踏上寻找你的旅途

<終わった>

i love this song~ <3

2008-09-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeps~!!!

dammit~!

running out of photos to practice photoshop sucks~!!!!

dammit~!!!

photographers~!!!!!!

organise photoshoots please~!!!

alucard13 laobu and Ash kitty~!!!!

damn...

2008-09-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

Meow~!

I'm one happy girl~!!!!!!

Yipee~!!!!

went and collect out rings today~

mwahahaha~

got our takoyaki's~

then had dinner at KFC~

walked around...

hurhur~

tada~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pictures~!!!!!!!!!

our rings~!!!!

and

darling's being wacky~

hurhur~

lalalala~

hint hint to darling~!! *click on the hint words*

MWAHAHAHA~!!!!

2008-09-13T01:32:00.002+08:00

If i could have one wish...

I'd wish for Darling Alex to not be too tired that the moment he touches the bed...

he's sprawled on the bed asleep...

if i could have another wish...

I'd wish SAF to vanish...

If i could have a third wish...

I'd wish to be mini pocket sized...

so that darling can bring me anywhere he wanted to...

If i could have fourth wish...

All i'd ask for is for us to be happy together...

no more quarrellings...

no more tired darling...

no more puffy eyes from crying...

no more sadness...

more hugs...

more kisses...

more fun together...

caring, concern, love...

darling i simply love u too much...

haiz...

if only wishes can come true...

if only there were wishes to begin with...

but i know its all fat hope...

impossible to have...

nah...

haiz...

it's okie...

i'll be okie...

i'll be fine...

just hold on to whatever time we have together...

even though it's difficult...

ciaossu...

2008-09-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

When in love

its not what you can do for them

but what u want to do for them.

理想彼氏わどこ？

無理　です。

愛し was said to have originated from 'Sadness' a long time ago,

So sadness must have been the foundation of love.

is that why there's so much sadness in love?

is that the reason why?

If I'm not around anymore,

will you think of me?

will you miss me?

Maybe you will.

Maybe you won't.

When I'm no longer alive.

I hope that you'll forget me.

Find a better girl.

If ever you find that I'm not good enough

or not suitable for you,

Tell me.

I'll leave and never appear in front of you ever again.

If ever, I cry till I'm blind.

You don't have to take care of me.

Leave me if you want to,

since you'll be fed up with me crying

and its my own fault that I can't see.

I think the next time u say the word

"Break-up" or anything of the likes

I'll disappear and never show up.

You won't every find me anywhere.

I guess,

I'm worthless.

Not worth anything.

Not worth any love, care and concern.

a person unworthy of everything good.

only worthy of everything that's dark.

So be it.

Whatever.

2008-09-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

Just because i said " can i throw away the bottle?"

we quarrelled...

you said i'm selfish...

all i wanted was simple...

then when i became unhappy...

you said i'm giving you arrogant high up attitude and that u don't deserve it...

I didn't say anything more...

then you got angry...

of all people...

you should understand...

maybe its too much to ask of you...

to understand how painful, how alone can it get...

when i'm hospitalised...

you weren't there...

you didn't know how many asthma attacks i had...

how the pain was unbearable...

so unbearable that i squirmed and rolled on the bed...

i could neither sit nor eat...

i cried...

when i got home...

you're out on outfield...

couldn't blame you...

stupid SAF's fault...

but do you understand the pain i'm going thru?

i couldn't sleep...

i couldn't eat...

I'm scared.

I'm alone.

i puked blood...

i fainted...

no one knows...

didn't tell u coz i didn't want u to worry...

do you understand all the mixed feelings i'm feeling?

all the pain, sorrow, uneasiness, loneliness, frightened, worrying, dizziness...

You said breakup so easily...

seems like i'm only your toy...

for you to play...

for your pleasure...

nothing of the romantic sort...

Maybe i should learn to take my heart back bit by bit...

Maybe i shouldn't trust u that much...

since you didn't trust me either...

Maybe i should just disappear...

from everyone...

from everywhere, from this world...

Seems like nobody can truly tolerate each other...

I'm all battered and torn...

both physically and mentally...

in the past i've had people coming to my blog calling me insane bitch, crazy, stupid, depressive slut, shameless bitch, whore...

what else is there to come?

I've had enough...

yeah...

i'm crazy...

yeah...

i'm a depressive bitch...

whatever you wanna call me...

Words can kill...

I tried killing myself coz of what my dad said and because of stress once...

I went crazy once cause of my family and maki...

During that period i couldn't recall anything...

i lived in denial, rejected everyone who came near me, screamed hysterically, banged my head against the wall or the table, couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, i just kept crying and laughing, cry myself to sleep then wake up and cry again, i stared into blank space...

haha...

yeah...

i'm demented...

Back off.

Yeah...

I'm nuts...

yeah...

i'm always unwanted...

i should distance myself away from everybody...

yeah...

i'm redundant...

i should just die off...

no one will bother anyway...

you can say i'm selfish or whatever you want...

Heck~!

My life is Trash~!

I'm unwanted trash...

I belong to the bin...

Forget it.

Forget me.

Forget everything...

I should learn never to fall so deeply in love ever again...

or should i say...

NEVER FALL IN LOVE AGAIN...

End.

Period.

Fullstop.

2008-09-11T07:11:00.000+08:00

Woke up in pain...

all alone in the room...

the bolster and pillows doesn't really have your scent anymore...

can't help missing him...

can't help crying...

didn't wanna give him stress..

didn't wanna depend too much on him either...

cannot...

when he's overseas i wouldn't be able to contact him...

if i keep depending, keep missing him so much, keep wanting to hear his voice, keep wanting to contact him, keep worrying for him...

will darling be stressed?

then how will i survive when he's overseas?

should i stop mahz?

the pain is getting unbearable...

darling...

i need ur hugs...

someone just hug me and let me cry...

Note to self: "Stop being so darn weak~!"

2008-09-10T00:15:00.001+08:00

I can't help it...

i cry whenever i think of u~

i miss you..

damn SAF took u to tekong...

shit them...

can't help it...

i hate myself...

i guess i never told anyone about that...

no point bah...

nobody cares...

haha...

i'm just a nobody...

nothing to anyone...

being stuck...

haiz...

forget it...

i shall keep everything to myself once more...

never shall i say anything again...

all shall be within...

2008-09-09T00:20:00.007+08:00

Argh~!

pain in the lower abdomen area~

i can't sleep

fuck it~

it doesn't seem to get better...

i couldn't be not enough rest...

haiz~

seriously in need of someone to take care of me...

sorry darling cried for me a few days ago...

coz he felt sorry for leaving me all alone for so long...

coz he couldn't take care of me...

he didn't want me to see him tearing up...

tried to hide from me...

he said sorry coz he couldn't hold back the tears...

STUPID SAF'S FAULT~!

seriously it's so difficult for us to spend some quality time together~

haiz~

damn~

i dun wan hubby to be so tired everyday...

i wanna see hubby alex every single day~

even if its just a few hours...

please...

is it so hard?

blame teh stupid idiotic SAF...

they suck balls... T.T

darling u said it's time to lock me up with a ring...

awaiting that day...

darling u said that it's a surprise for me...

don't worry it's still a surprise...

coz i don't know when you will present it to me...

*remind u of 命中注定，我爱你~*

I sincerely pray to heaven
so that we can
have some quality time together...

I sincerely pray
that you don't have to be so tired...

I sincerely hope
that we can be together
till the end of both of our times...

I sincerely hope
that everything will turn out alright...

I sincerely hope and pray...
for us to be loving and caring for each other...
till death do us part...

I'll love you till the day i stop breathing~

http://www.shoppinglifestyle.com/microsite/200808_contest/index.asp?r=mjoh{j/2:99Ahnbjm/dpn

wootx~!

2008-09-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

lalala~

2008-09-03T01:54:00.004+08:00

omg~!

I'm so happy~!

Alex hubby came home from his camp as a surprise for me~

*by right he won't be home till Thursday*

i missed him so~

omg~

i love him so much~

thanks for coming back~

i needed you~

but you're too tired to stay awake and accompany me~

its okie~

take a rest~

you're on duty tomorrow~

so you can't sleep much either~

get more rest bah~

you're been too tired~

thanks for doing so much for me~

I'm sorry i must have been a burden to you...

i know I'm quite useless...

I'm lazy...

thanks for the surprise you gave me...

i love it...

thanks for the hugs...

thanks for the kisses...

thanks for giving me warmth when i needed it...

don't feel bad for not accompanying me when 'something' happens...

you can't be with me...

it's not that you don't want to...

you're busy...

stupid SAF made you so...

you're tired...

stupid SAF made you so...

sorry to have made darling so worried about me...

I'm just happy that you can be back at home...

so i can see you...

I'm happy just having you by my side...

i just hope that you feel the same way...

i smile when i see your cute sleeping face...

i cry when you flare up at me / ignore me...

I'm happy whenever you hugged and kissed me...

I'm sad when you're tired mainly because of me...

sorry that you have to do so many things...

my emotions are controlled by you...

my heart is yours...

take care of it...

hold me tight...

love me tenderly...

I'm your koala/kitty/piggy...

you're my eucalyptus tree/doggy/piggy...

I love you...

and i miss you the moment you're away...

I cherish the time we had together
<333

2008-09-02T16:03:00.007+08:00

lost something so precious and dear...

i feel so empty without it...

feeling sadness deep within me...

for i don't wanna lose it...

sigh.

enough of that...

trackback link

why are guys so stupid...

MCPs...

judging and stereotyping people...

guys just want a gf to boost their ego?

guys wants a gf who looks stupid?

wtf is the world coming to...?

ridiculous...

why is makeup done just to look good a phoney?

there's no plastic surgery involved anyway...

its also us...

but why some guys can't except it that we wanna look good?

we wanna look good so you'd be proud of us...

instead of like at the start of the relationship you say "you're simple and pretty"

and then as time goes by you say "you're fat and ugly"

makeup is not a crime~

its just how we make ourselves look good...

MCPs who stereotype should just buzz off...

okay enough about that issue~

dammit i need new makeup...

but there's no one whom i can go shopping with...

Alex's not around~ *stupid SAF for taking him*

i'm not allowed outside till i recover anyway...

dammit...

I NEED NEW MAKEUP~!!!!!!

dammit...

wishlist:

- Makeup brush set *i lost mine dammit* - $??

- Chanel's Exceptional De Chanel Mascara - $46
or
- Inimitable's Inimitable Waterproof Multi-dimensional Mascara - $??

- RMK's Super Basic Concealer - $29
or
- Clinique's All About Eyes Concealer - $35

- RMK's Makeup Base - $53

- Bourjoise's Three tone palette eye shadow Black - $??

- Bourjoise's Three tone palette eye shadow Brown - $??

- Bobbi Brown's Crystal Lip Gloss - $33

- Shiseido's Maquillage Smooth Lip Liner in nude - $47

Others:

Basically i just need long lasting *those in bold are in dire need*

- Concealer - Fair skin tone *i need a better one then the one i got at missha*
- Foundation - Natural *ZA's Foundation number 32*
- Mascara - Black
- Eyeliner - Black and White
- Eye Shadow - Black and Brown
- Make-up Base - Normal skin
- Nude Lip Liner
- Make-up Brushes
- Lip Gloss
- Lip Stick - pinkish nude
- Lip Matte
- Blush *not necessary, i still have my Chanel's Irreelle blush in 20 Enigma*
- Eyelashes *any nice ones to recommend?*
- Contact lenses - Brown/Blue/Purple

lalalala~!!!! that's all i'm done~
and i'm changing my chatterbox to cbox coz its better...
tagworld deletes all my posts *dammit*...

changing my blog wallie soon~

2008-06-23T19:40:00.002+08:00

I suddenly remembered this song~

from the movie "I not Stupid 2" *its not my english that's bad but that the actual title*

it reminds me of my childhood~

well~

not much of a childhood anyway~

hurhur~

well~

here goes the song lyrics~

Song title-孤军作战
Artist-洪俊扬
Song-杨波
Lyrics-梁智强

我们肆无忌惮
我们成群结党
我们目无尊长
对什么事都不满
看著我们的成长
只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处看你又能怎样
我们don't give a damn
那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是
我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会
渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙
学校老师束手无策
父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了
我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书
就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们
就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们
为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会替我们想想
苹果为何会变烂
其实我们也曾努力
要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟
给了我们多少希望
泪水已经流干
前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂
我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望
有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

anybody can relate to it as i did?

2008-06-10T01:28:00.002+08:00

finally a post~

blog background finally up~

changes in layout also~

in the meantime~

many things happened~

too much to say~

i don't know where to start~

i guess too much love is put in~

so much so that i'm scared~

yes~

i'm quite weak now~

both mentally and physically because of the procedure i'm supposed to be going thru later at the doctor's~

i'm feeling scared~

i'm feeling insecure~

i'm feeling sad~

i'm feeling stressed~

i feel like crying~

but i can't~

have to stay strong~

Bao bei darling can't be with me~

coz he's on course and he's in NS~

i just hope to see him soon~

i just want his hugs and kisses~

i miss him badly~

sorry i may sound wilful~

but i want him~

guess i'll have to wait till this weekend when he books out~

i just hope everything will turn out fine and go smoothly~

no more bumps and walls to climb~

haiz~

Bao Bei darling~

I love you~

I miss you~

I need you~

I want you~

I won't leave you~

unless...

u don't want me anymore...

haiz~

I'm a complete failure~

I'm a complete FOOL~

2008-04-23T03:34:00.002+08:00

yesh~!

finally a blog post~!!!

hurhur~

major revamp coming right up~

changes in wallpaper *confirm*~

and placing of boxes soon *i think*~

changing of blog song to DBSK's Purple Line *coz i love that song dammit~ i'm addicted to it*

mwahahahaha~ hmmm~

what else is to come~ O_O

2008-04-12T05:08:00.002+08:00

为你存在才不孤单~

2008-04-03T15:32:00.001+08:00

Real name: Kelly Teo/Mizuhara Misha
Nicknames: LingZi / Mushroom / Sleepyhead / Piggy / Rukia / Linwe
Married: Nope.
Male/Female: Female.
High School: Damai Secondary
College: -
University: -

Short or long hair: Short.
Are you a healthy freak: NEVER
Height: 1.66m
Do you have a crush on someone?: Currently Nope. i love someone already.
Do you like yourself?: ermm... are you kidding me?
Righty or lefty: i can use both.

First...
Surgery: yes~ hmmm~ but forgot where~
Piercing: Ears.
Person you see in the morning: No one in particular~
Award: alot of Sports Competitions.
Sport you joined: Netball, Basketball, Skipping, Track and field
Pet: -
Vacation: Penang~ i almost fainted due to heat stroke though~
Concert: Jay Chou*inmydreams* / Shin / 5566 / Luo Zhi Xiang*inmydreams*
First crush: Primary 3

Currently...
Eating: Nope.
Drinking: Nope.
Im about to: learn piano~
your future...
want kids: yesh~
Want to get married: yesh~ when i'm 21 officially of course~
Careers in mind: Designer~? graphics design thanks~! =x

which is better?
Lips or eyes?: Eyes. the window to one's soul~
Hugs or kisses: Hugs. but can i have both?
Shorter or taller: taller. *cough*iamnotwalkingadawg*cough* =x
Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic. but can i have both? =x
Sensitive or loud: Sensitive!!! i dun really like loud ppL! ( as in voice!)
troublemaker or hesitant?: troublemaker .

Have you ever...kissed a stranger: Nope.
drank bubbles: Nope.
lost glasses/contacts: Yup.
ran away from home: Yesh.
liked someone younger: Yesh.
liked someone older: Yesh.
broke someone's heart: Yesh. love is selfish.
Cried when someone died: Yesh... for my bestfriend in primary school and for my friend in secondary school.

DO you believe in...
Yourself: ermmmm... kinda...
Miracles: errmmm... do they exist?
Heaven: ermm... not really...
Santa claus: HE DOESN'T EXIST
Magic: No.
Angels: Yes!

Answer truthfully...
is there someone you want to be with right now? Yesh. Alex darling.
do you believe in God? not really.
Tag 5 people: Alex darling, Agnes, Yuki-shermaine, eden1818, Jia Jia...

-----------------------------------

eeps~

haiz~

>.<

okie~

done~

wakakakakakakka~

kope survey~

=x

sianz~

i wanna learn piano and violin~!!!!!

shucks~

=x

2008-04-02T02:29:00.002+08:00

ThE kEyS tO mY hEaRt...

You are attracted to obedience and warmth. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

this stands so true~

geez~

a few days past my bdae~

and i'm 20~!

omg~

i'm old~

>.<

hur hur~

i still don't get it why some ppl still mistake me as someone younger than 18~

fk them~ =_=|||

for god's sake~

do i look that young?

and hiak hiak~!!!!!

alex darling~!!!!!!

i love you~!!!!!

<333

*huggies*

*kisses*

looking forward to our japan trip end of this year~!

^^

hehe~

save some moolah~

so i can do mass shopping~!!!

mwahahaha~

mass punk, cosplay related and cute misc things ftw~!

wootx~!!!!

*hugs and kisses*

thanks for everything you did for me*

thanks for everything you thought out for me*

thanks for making time for me*

thanks for giving in to me*

thanks for everything*

sorry for getting you so tired always*

sorry for making you worry*

sorry for trying to not depend on you*

sorry for being wilful at times*

sorry for being too stubborn at times*

sorry for retreating to my own world at times*

thanks for the promise you gave me*

thanks for the hope you gave me*

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING*

"i love you"
"je'taime"
"ti amo"
"aishiteru"

2008-03-17T11:41:00.003+08:00

what i wore on jrock matsuri~

and what i wore on cosplay matsuri~

2008-03-10T15:49:00.003+08:00

pictures taken from the photoshoot last saturday~

well at the least~ it's some of it~ =x

2008-03-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

whole convo with maki today...

Maki- says:
wrking?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
yea
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
^^
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
but
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i'm slacking
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
=x
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
reading manga's at work
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
mwahhaa
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
=x
Maki- says:
bday gg where
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
no where iguess
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
why?
Maki- says:
tell u when its coming
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
tell who when its coming?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
tell myself or who?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
O_O
Maki- says:
tell u lo
Maki- says:
u wrkin tt day?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
hmmm
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
half day
Maki- says:
wad time off
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
1.30pm
Maki- says:
location?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
aljunied
Maki- says:
wah
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
?
Maki- says:
orh ok
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
why/
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
why u ask?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
O_O?
Maki- says:
mystery!!!
Maki- says:
haha
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
O_O
Maki- says:
tell u ltr
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
..
Maki- says:
?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
nth
Maki- says:
-.-;;
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i was thinking why all of a sudden u ask me what am i gonna do on my bdae
Maki- says:
u no progs on tt day rite
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
yea
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
so prgs as of yet
Maki- says:
s d
Maki- says:
zhekai typing to u
Maki- says:
lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
help me say hi to kai kai
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
^^
Maki- says:
when coming then tell u wad plans
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
this friday i going MOS
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
mwahaha
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
madd drinking spree
Maki- says:
wah
Maki- says:
...
Maki- says:
y u go drink
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
hur
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i get drunk also nevermind what
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
没人管
Maki- says:
ur health..
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
my health?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
heck care it la
Maki- says:
dots
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
don't give a damn
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
lol
Maki- says:
dont drink ba
Maki- says:
we go movie
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i watched L change the world already
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i watched meet the spartans already
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i watched kungfu dunk already
Maki- says:
orh
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i watched ah long pte ltd already
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
is there anything else to watch?
Maki- says:
by then gt new movie le
Maki- says:
waterhorse seems nt bad
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
dunno
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
=/
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i watched jumper also
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
nice movie~
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
whee~
Maki- says:
tele
Maki- says:
haha
Maki- says:
e guy quite handsome ma
Maki- says:
e gal nt bad also
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
i only interested in the story
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
no longer interested in guys
Maki- says:
e guy`s devotion?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
nope
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
no longer interested in any human male species
Maki- says:
wtf
Maki- says:
u ban me ah
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
hmm?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
nope
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
just that i'm not longer interested in guys
Maki- says:
-.-
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
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(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
what thing?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
is there a problem mahz?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
O_O?
Maki- says:
erm.
Maki- says:
u dont love u le arhs
Maki- says:
me*
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
you have a girl in your life already
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
short and simple
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
simple and sweet
Maki- says:
no more =(
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
why?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
she ccan't stand you?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
or what>
Maki- says:
wtf
Maki- says:
y me
Maki- says:
ahaaa
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
how i know
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
the reason does not lie with either or you?

(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
then do you mean to tell me that it lies with me?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
O_O?
Maki- says:
hmm..
Maki- says:
u haven ans me or
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
what is it u ask?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
if i still have feelings for you?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
hmm?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
after these months you come back and ask me this?
Maki- says:
tts my fault
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
how is it that its ur fault?
Maki- says:
dont knw hw to put it
Maki- says:
u ans me 1st
Maki- says:
?
Maki- says:
u bz?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
how should i answer you?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
how do you want me to answer you?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says:
Maki- says:
dont knw hw to put it <--- there has to be a way to put it across to me at the least Maki- says: need ur ans ma
Maki- says: then can put into words
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: my feelings have already gone unseen for like months already
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: what's the use of feelings at this point of time/
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: what's the use of feelings at this point of time?
Maki- says: i tht u will persevere
Maki- says: at e point u say u love me alot
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: over the phone u told me coldly not to message or call u anymore
Maki- says: force to
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: o rly?
Maki- says: i say 这阵子
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
Maki- says: u didnt get my msg ba
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: Maki- says: i tht u will persevere <--- what's the point?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: and plus i think u slept with that girl also
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: so if u really enjoyed fucking her
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: then why come find me/
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: then why come find me?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: nothing else to say?
Maki- says: if u wan to put it this way
Maki- says: u alrdy wont wan me to say anything
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: so u did fuck her eh?
Maki- says: yes gt
Maki- says: i dont like lying u know tt also
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: so how does fucking her feel?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: superb?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i dont like lying u know tt also <--- o rly? u lied to me numerous times~ and you know that~
Maki- says: regarding?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: quite a number of things actually
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: but i'm not about to go recount all of them
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: you are damn cruel
Maki- says: so u bear hatred for me rite
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: no hatred
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: all i have is sadness
Maki- says: u nt cruel?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i never fucked any guy when i was with u
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: even during the period when in order to spite u i went out with gerard
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i never let him lay a finger on me
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: never
Maki- says: u slp at e other guy hse
Maki- says: ignoring all my contact
Maki- says: i didnt even qns u
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: he never touched me also and during that period of time i was asleep
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: u wanna rake up the past? by all means go ahead
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: that just proves that you don't have the slightest trust in me~
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: even though i do break promises at times
Maki- says: e pt i didnt qns u
Maki- says: coz i hav faith
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: then why did u start questioning me now?
Maki- says: but still
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: still what?
Maki- says: so its dont love le or wad
Maki- says: me u both human
Maki- says: u made mistakes so do i
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: can u tell me what does loving you have to gain?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: what do i have to gain by loving u?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: so now you're trying to say that all humans make mistakes right?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
Maki- says: u juz wan gains n benefits?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: nope
Maki- says: then y u relate it to gains
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i relate it to gain because that's the closest most possible answer i can think of
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: have u ever give a though of what i really need and want?
Maki- says: have u too?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: sometimes
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: things are meant to be left unsaid
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: coz
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: its for me to know and for you to find out
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: but do you even put in the effort to find out what was i thinking?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: why am i having relapse time and again?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: do you bother to go to my blog
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: to find out?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: or asking my friends?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: no u didn't
Maki- says: i seen everypost
Maki- says: u track e ip
Maki- says: n frenster
Maki- says: its everyday issue
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i went in friendster everyday
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: ^^
Maki- says: tts if u bother
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: one month see u step on my profile once
Maki- says: 1mth?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: duhz?
Maki- says: sure 1 mth wad
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: and blogger doens't track any ips
Maki- says: i every day login
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: and the thing is
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: you should know that the blog that we have
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: still exists
Maki- says: ya
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: if it even meant a thing
Maki- says: but u put
Maki- says: it not in use
Maki- says: i wan post there
Maki- says: but c tt msg
Maki- says: i tht u abandon it
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: if i ever abandoned it
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: will it even still exist?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: do you even bother to think?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: why in the world does it still exists?
Maki- says: hw i knw
Maki- says: when it cant load
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: that's coz its password protected
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: coz
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i locked it up
Maki- says: then u nv tell me
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: only the ppl who are involved in the blog can open it after logging in
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: why should i tell you at that point of time?
Maki- says: u knw i blog nub
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: does it serve a purpose?
Maki- says: btw e evo2 boss talk me abt u
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: and then?
Maki- says: he knws also?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: he knows nothing
Maki- says: y u so offensive in ur words
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: does it sound like that?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i don't know
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: btw
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: you've been there
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: what did he tell u abt?
Maki- says: he wan sponsor me
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: yeah
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: coz i said you were good
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: all along i told him the good things about the teams out there
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: while i was there i literally brain washed him
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: =_=
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: but
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: forget it
Maki- says: b4 tt he saw me play b4
Maki- says: at e compy
Maki- says: b4 u go wrk
Maki- says: he wan sponsor tt time
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: the compy at evo?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
Maki- says: but i reject
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: he doens't even remember ur face
Maki- says: hes was impress tt time
Maki- says: when our oppo all quit to give up
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: when i started working there~ when i mentioned you~ he doesn't even remember you face or ur nick or ur name
Maki- says: which dude
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: the boss
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: basil
Maki- says: big size 1?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: duhz`
Maki- says: lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: arbo who?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: what did he say about me?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: slacker?
Maki- says: no
Maki- says: nv say much
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: right
Maki- says: he open another branch below le
Maki- says: lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i also know
Maki- says: 2 branch in 1 building
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: it was in operations although not fully
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: even b4 i left
Maki- says: off wrk
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: today?
Maki- says: ya
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: 5.30 - 6pm
Maki- says: k tk care
Maki- says: i go pack hse
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: take care?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: nahz
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: no use
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i've been fainting all too often already
Maki- says: then drink n eat well
Maki- says: rest well
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: bo lui
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: dun care liao
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: gastric le
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: also nevermind
Maki- says: i can cook
Maki- says: lol
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: i now having gastric
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: rofl
Maki- says: then go hav a bite
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: bo lui
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: lol
Maki- says: u wrk so long le
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: my hp also bo lui
Maki- says: no money meh
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: haha
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: salary haben come in
Maki- says: u used all?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: what thing used all?
Maki- says: $
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: my last month pay only 200+
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: how to not use finish?
Maki- says: wtf
Maki- says: 200?
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: yesh
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: that's just how pathetic evo's pay is
Maki- says: crazy
(U).:: Misha ::.(U).:: LiNgZi ::.(U).:: Rukia ::. (U).:: Kelly ::. Prince of Contemplations~ says: hur

hur~ pathetic~ i don't know what to say~ i don't know what to feel anymore~

2008-02-20T12:28:00.001+08:00

damn~

dratz it~

my msn has a virus~

haiz~

i gave up on it~

damn~

needa find ways and means to get online~

zzz~

i'm gonna die soon~

dammit~

i have loads to do on the net~!!!

fk~

the blardy msn even took jesuke's pic as a dp~

zzz~

and spammed other ppl shitty messages~

darn it~

DIE BITCH (referring to MSN)~!

2008-02-19T08:36:00.002+08:00

Slept in early last night~

i think i slept at 8pm~

when i woke up i realised that my phone is insilent mode~

there were 3 miss calls~

4 messages~

WHOW~

i got spammed without me knowing it~

=_=

hurhur~

i think i seriously needa top up my account every week~

LOLOLOL~

nvm~

^^

its okie~

^^

at the least~

my phone is finally busy~

=x

2008-02-18T11:17:00.003+08:00

been MIA for afew days~

been thinking of alot of shits~

and alot of shits happened~

alot of good stuff happened~

but will i be able to grasp that happiness i always sought for?

anyway~

i went out to catch a movie with a bunch of friends~

'Ah Long Pte Ltd"

freaking funny movie~

super funny~

i was laughing practcally throughout the movie~

watched it with Acktosh, Logic, Takashi, Spidey, Yumi, Gary? =x

with Jesuke Joining us after the movie to discuss abt their cosplay related stuff~

lol~!!

i was actually surprised that i'd meet yumi there~

rofl~

its been ages since i last saw her also~

haha~

every since the trickster online cosplay thingy at GCA~

haha~

i still remember how everybody chiong their costumes out~

but it's fun~

^^

still thinking about whether or not to cosplay sengoku musou 2~

contempating between inahime and ginchiyou~

armour wise~ inahime is less tedious~

weapon wise~ ginchiyou is less tedious~

how?

but i like inahime~

hmmm~

but the moment i think about her bow~

>_<''' how am i gonna transport it? how am i gonna do it? I'm so gonna be dead~ hmmm~ then again~ i already have:- vampire knight - Senri Shiki (tentative) Final Fantasy Advent Children - Denzel Blaue Rosen - Okita Ai hmmm~ how to slot in sengoku musou 2?

2008-02-13T13:13:00.003+08:00

its been long since i blogged~

alot of things happened~

people come people go~

somehow~

somewhat~

I'm reminded of my past~

i cried~

i shouted~

i regretted~

wounds re-opened~

everything is vague~

been sick recently yet again~

haiz~

this time~

Gastric plus Asthma, sore throat and cough~

i wonder when will it heal~ =/

sad case~ =x

2008-01-30T02:17:00.000+08:00

歌曲：斗牛，要不要
歌手：Tank
专辑：《电视原声带》斗牛要不要

嘿,单挑啊!
斗牛要不要
用骄傲单挑
承认你弱就快点逃

斗牛要不要
这地盘我要
你现在还来得及逃
斗牛要不要
用骄傲单挑承认
你弱就快点逃
斗牛.要不要
这地盘我要
你现在还来得及逃

我冷静从容,掌控这个宇宙
你以为在跟谁打篮球
我左右换手灌篮性的突破
我这种打法不是你能够防守
不是你能够防守
你别在我的面前现丑
轻轻划过我的球一声破网
2分球
我的对手不用感到失落
篮球这种天分你没有
想跟我决斗,你还要
我生而为王,胜利是我的王后
你别妄想能够打败我
斗牛.要不要
用骄傲单挑承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛.要不要
这地盘我要
你现在还来得及逃
斗牛.要不要
用骄傲单挑
承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛.要不要
这地盘我要
你现在还来得及逃
斗牛.要不要
用骄傲单挑
承认你弱就快点逃
斗牛.要不要
这地盘我要
你现在还来得及逃

2008-01-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

phew~

a day after SOY?

hurhur~

dead tired~

feet hurts~

i envy those ppl who are in teh leet air conditioned theatre~

LOL~!

i only managed to get into the air conditioned place for like half an hour in total~

lol~

the rest of the time i'm standing~

posing~

and enjoying myself~

but hell yeah~

its killing my feet~

LOL~!

i could bear with the heat~

but my feet's suffering heel~

lol~

been swarmed by photogs~

held pose there for like 20 mins b4 i could move~

lol~

fun experience~

not the first time though~

so i'm not surprised at all~

kinda used to it~

and then i travelled to another place/back home from the event~

ppl stared~

yes~

they stared~

LOL~!

coz i was still wearing the costume~

LOL~!

rofl~

hilarious~

there's this girl who's mouth went 'O' when she saw me in the bus b4 alighting~

at least that's what my sis said~

lol~

i'd bet she's thinking if i'm a guy or a girl~(?) =x

hurhur~

2008-01-24T14:10:00.001+08:00

A Chord's Post

懊恼~
郁闷~
困惑~
经历的种种总在我最失意的时候跳进我的脑海里~
好烦阿~
头快炸开了~
心好痛~
病情也没好到哪里去~
可就是没人管~
就越变越遭~
医药费太贵没办法继续吃~
只得挨着~
硬撑~
每天强装忙绿~
只想把烦恼忘掉~
可是就是没办法就这样忘了~
该怎么办才好~
我只求能一个人平平静静的过日子~
想起来~
我还真羡慕自己小时候是多么的无忧无虑的~
有什么事都由大人来承担~
想想一下~
觉得自己还真的逊敝了~
郁闷~
真可恶~！
美纱阿~！
要振作阿~！
自己要为自己加油打气~！
其他的事别去想了~
咳~

2008-01-22T03:55:00.000+08:00

Track Back to Danson Tang's Blog

禹哲，
加油~
多多休息~
身体要建健康康就好了~
如果天气冷的话~
多穿一点衣服吧~
不要生病了~
真可惜~
错过了你在新加坡的宣传活动~
记得要在来新加坡哦~! ^^

2008-01-22T03:08:00.000+08:00

_Prank_

Life's all a Prank~
_Fooling us_
_Playing us_
_Laughing at us_
if time were to rollback~
i'd wish that i'm not born at all~

2008-01-21T02:37:00.001+08:00

2008-01-18T05:44:00.000+08:00

words to remind~

_Reminisce_
_Reflection_

I'm not fit~

2008-01-15T03:42:00.000+08:00

我不配 - 周杰伦

这街上太拥挤　
太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　
又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　
隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对　
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

这街上太拥挤　
太多人有秘密　
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨　
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿　
又斑驳了几句　
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅　
隔遥远的距离　
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你　
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉　已经不对　
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对　
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

这感觉　已经不对　
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略　你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对　
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

recently fell in love with this song~
all the words~
stories written within words~
meaning all over within the lines~
feelings spilled within~
feelings unnoticed~
all the weight i lost~
happiness seldom showed up on my face~
has my heart been mercilessly trampled upon?
but why am i even missing that someone whom i shouldn't be missing~
i'm stupid~
all i ever wanted from him~
was his company~
but it seems he never cared~
i have nothing much to say~
heartbroken is the only word to express my thoughts, my feelings and my shattered heart~

2008-01-15T03:36:00.000+08:00

回马枪 - 唐禹哲

請快點卸掉你善良的外衣
也不要唧唧喳喳說個不停
寵你被你說成了沒出息　
沒道理
這個季節的天氣好到不行
想忘記你的美麗出去旅行
剛剛出門又中了你的暗器
短信說你想我回去
難道你非要讓我這樣左右不定
我已分不清什麽是愛情什麽是遊戲
你用回馬槍在我身上徘徊
不要用古人的兵法來跟我實驗
雖然每一次我都裝做已無所謂
哪一天　
才終結
你用回馬槍讓我心疲倦
不要再問我來世還會再愛誰
一個人沿著古老城牆走一遍
才發現　
這一次真的很累

這個季節的天氣好到不行
想忘記你的美麗出去旅行
剛剛出門又中了你的暗器
短信說你想我回去
難道你非要讓我這樣左右不定
我已分不清什麽是愛情什麽是遊戲
你用回馬槍在我身上徘徊
不要用古人的兵法來跟我實驗
雖然每一次我都裝做已無所謂
哪一天　
才終結
你用回馬槍讓我心疲倦
不要再問我來世還會再愛誰
一個人沿著古老城牆走一遍
才發現　這一次真的很累

>_< <333 this song~

haiz~

been thinking alot~

too much~

too little~

too exhausted~

too busy~

i'd most probably be gone with the wind continuing like this~

these few days~

i'd have the feeling of suffocation~

sometimes my chest hurts~

as though someone tried smothering me~

or punched me on the chest area~

just suddenly couldn't breathe~

maybe its just a sign that my lungs are giving way~

but whatever~

i dun give a damn~

=/

2008-01-11T18:57:00.001+08:00

2008-01-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

i haven't been out much lately~

nothing's new~

too tired~

been sick for like a month already~

vomitting blood~

everything seems vague~

argh~

forget it~

still missing someone i shouldn't be missing anymore~

someone told me that i'm not the type to be pinning for someone like this~

but~

the thing is~

you don't really know me well as of yet~

don't pass a judgement based on your own~

then today i received a call from him~

asking how am i doing etc etc~

i seriously don't know how the hell am i gonna answer that~

he asked me if i'm going out or something~

i told him~

i go out for what~

i no boyfriend go out for what~

he say in the past you got boyfriend also go out what~

i say i just wanna stay home (what i really wanna say is:"in the past i ask him out he also dun wan~ saying he's damn tired or that it's too late~ so i find friend to go out")~

then he say that beejun saw me the other day at cathay (should be that day when it was countdown coz i remember that that was the last time i was out with them the rest of my time is at home or go out with my mum to the hospital)~

saw me hugging someone~

i guess that someone should be horo bah~

then he though horo was my bf~

diaoz horo is younger than me by a few years~!

how the hell can he be my boyfriend?

i've no interest in any relationship anymore~

hurt too badly to even do anything~

i'm steering away from the relationships~

not gonna touch~

not gonna see~

not gonna hear~

all i wanna do is to stay at home and watch shows~

or just go to work~

dun feel like going out at all~

no mood~

no one~

nothing~

2008-01-07T00:15:00.000+08:00

just now as i was eating with a friend~

all that i thought was maki~

fleeting images oh so sweet~

haunting my heart

my mind~

my soul~

i got moody all of a sudden~

been sick and haven't been well for like 3 weeks already~

and yet all i could think of was him~

and i simply can't forget those harsh words~

they're simply too harsh~

i'd drown in them~

i didn't know what to do~

2008-01-03T10:23:00.000+08:00

_poison_

_Reminisce_

2008-01-03T10:13:00.000+08:00

_Haiz_

_Spilled heart_

_devil's tears_

_fallen angel_

"and i still love you~"

2008-01-02T07:56:00.000+08:00

_to someone whom i always loved_
_since the day in dec 2005_

i'm shutting myself up~
not gonna fall so deeply~
not gonna fall in another one~
i'm tired~
i've fallen too deeply~
too deep that i don't know where's my heart anymore~
can i ever find it back?
hur~
i doubt it~

2008-01-02T07:27:00.000+08:00

_truth about love_

_sentiments_

_a thing of the past_

2008-01-02T07:24:00.000+08:00

it just doesn't mean anything anymore~

2007-12-31T05:21:00.001+08:00

2007-12-31T04:44:00.000+08:00

its high time~

that i should try to live my life the way i want to~

i've been restricted by one too many~

maybe its best if i'd remain single thru my entire life~

everything is burning~

and i wanna end everything~

all the unhappiness~

all the sadness~

all the freaking anguish~

all the unexpected outcomes~

time is too short to stop for anything~

i should just let on~

disappear~

into thin air~

and just sleep an eternal sleep~

that way my parent's should be happy~

after all i fell out with them when i was still with maki~

relatives who cared for me too~

i fell out with all of them~

seems like~

everything's just gone~

if i'm ever gone~

they'd just be rejoicing~

2007-12-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

as much as i can't take it~

all i can say~

is~

i love you as always~

and that fact never changes~

although i know i'd get hurt~

although i know i'd be scorned at~

although i know i'd be thick skinned~

all i ever wanted was to love you~

take care~

more and more blood~

more and more appetite-less~

more and more painful attacks~

there's nothing i can do~

docs suspect that i have tubercolosis~

what can i do?

life is short~

hur~

all the regrets~

2007-12-30T07:32:00.000+08:00

still remember this conversation?
in irc~
private chat~
i always kept it~
i love u as much as always~
______________________________________
11:31:17] maki`emo>dear
11:31:28] izgnil>?
11:31:41] maki`emo>rem ur lunch
11:31:46] maki`emo>dont skip everytime
11:32:08] izgnil>ok
11:32:10] maki`emo>ytd u slp le ah?
11:32:16] izgnil>yeah
11:32:39] izgnil>i slept at arnd 10+
11:32:49] maki`emo>so pig ah
11:32:50] maki`emo>haha
11:32:53] izgnil>o.o
11:33:01] maki`emo>today np got wgt
11:33:07] maki`emo>kw team nw playing
11:33:11] izgnil>o.o
11:33:40] izgnil>i was supposed to work for wgt on the 28th
11:33:42] izgnil>=/
11:33:46] *Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:33:50] izgnil>o.o
11:34:11] *Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:34:12] 8Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:34:12] *Maki`EMO muack iZgNiL
11:34:31] *Maki`EMO hug iZgNiL
11:34:35] izgnil>O.o
11:34:49] izgnil>last time its always me doing it
11:34:52] izgnil>=/
11:35:48] maki`emo>i didnt give u tat attention
11:35:54] maki`emo>nw i giving all to u
11:37:39] maki`emo>laopo
11:38:02] izgnil>?
11:38:30] maki`emo>later i come fetch u
11:38:59] izgnil>dun nid bah
11:39:21] maki`emo>y sia
11:39:46] izgnil>nth
11:41:50] maki`emo>gxl u was there?
11:42:50] izgnil>yeah
11:42:53] izgnil>i was there
11:43:02] maki`emo>y on ur blog u say late
11:43:18] maki`emo>laopo
11:43:23] maki`emo>i love u
11:43:25] maki`emo>yes i do
11:43:34] maki`emo>i`ll b with u
11:43:45] maki`emo>as long as u wan me go
11:43:50] maki`emo>until e end of time
11:44:48] maki`emo>dear?
11:44:50] izgnil>?
11:44:55] izgnil>sry i was on the phone
11:44:59] izgnil>with moi mum
11:45:01] maki`emo>o ok
11:46:03] maki`emo>nw still on ah
11:46:43] izgnil>nope
11:46:47] izgnil>just put down
11:48:31] maki`emo>dear
11:48:59] izgnil>?
11:49:10] maki`emo>u still angry ah
11:49:14] izgnil>why?
11:49:52] maki`emo>sry i was stupid
11:50:10] maki`emo>can u forgive me
11:50:29] izgnil>how was you stupid?
11:50:44] maki`emo>i was being a mutuo
11:52:29] izgnil>mu tou?
11:52:31] izgnil>=/
11:52:43] izgnil>louise said "dumbass"
11:52:45] izgnil>=/
11:53:22] maki`emo>she scold me
11:53:38] izgnil>she scold you what?
11:53:38] maki`emo>wooden block dumbass insensitive creature
11:53:53] maki`emo>pro in gaming , very lan in games of love
11:55:00] maki`emo>i tink tats all she said
11:55:21] izgnil>okie
11:55:37] maki`emo>lao po forgive me plz
11:56:44] maki`emo>e regrets keep striking deep into my heart
11:57:06] maki`emo>i realise e pain u gone thru
11:57:43] maki`emo>hao bu hao
11:58:09] maki`emo>let us cont ur love story
11:58:17] yrcgnil>cont?
11:58:19] yrcgnil>how?
11:58:26] yrcgnil>when moi heart is in shreds?
11:58:42] maki`emo>y is it shreds
11:58:44] maki`emo>dear dont cry
11:59:14] maki`emo>even its in shreds its my doing
11:59:18] maki`emo>let me piece em back
11:59:45] maki`emo>its our love story
11:59:47] maki`emo>our promise
12:02:39] yrcgnil>promise?
12:02:42] yrcgnil>=/
12:02:46] maki`emo>?
12:03:27] yrcgnil>moi heart is torn apart already
12:05:08] maki`emo>fix em back
12:05:49] maki`emo>u kick ban me for?
12:06:08] yrcgnil>nope
12:06:21] yrcgnil>its a discussion
12:06:22] yrcgnil>=/
12:06:31] maki`emo>wa dicussion
12:07:59] yrcgnil>u wanna go in the channel again?
12:08:01] yrcgnil>ok le
12:08:20] maki`emo>wa u hiding
12:08:36] yrcgnil>i am not hiding anything
12:08:44] maki`emo>i dont care wa they say
12:09:03] maki`emo>its ur words tat i care for
12:11:14] maki`emo>wa u dicuss abt?
12:11:17] yrcgnil>care?
12:11:21] yrcgnil>hiz
12:11:22] yrcgnil>haiz
12:11:31] maki`emo>yes c a r e
12:11:38] yrcgnil>some things are not meant to be seen
12:12:16] maki`emo>u still zai hu wo ma
12:12:50] yrcgnil>yeah
12:12:53] yrcgnil>but what the point?
12:13:01] yrcgnil>you dun appreciate it
12:13:07] maki`emo>i do
12:13:27] maki`emo>u already explain to u e every lil actions i do
12:14:27] yrcgnil>i'm still neglected
12:14:33] yrcgnil>left alone
12:14:41] maki`emo>now u r not alone
12:14:49] maki`emo>i`ll b always by ur side
12:14:49] yrcgnil>and i am afraid of being left alone
12:15:05] maki`emo>u mean now still neglected?
12:16:03] maki`emo>dear?
12:16:20] yrcgnil>yes?
12:16:23] yrcgnil>yeah
12:16:29] maki`emo>nw?
12:16:44] maki`emo>am i doing not enuf
12:17:34] maki`emo>if ur office allow to
12:17:37] maki`emo>i come now
12:17:52] yrcgnil>nvm
12:18:01] yrcgnil>there's no need
12:18:02] yrcgnil>T_T
12:18:35] maki`emo>o shit
12:18:38] maki`emo>u nv go eat
12:18:45] maki`emo>u eating?
12:18:58] yrcgnil>i haben eat yet
12:19:11] maki`emo>go eat then
12:19:50] maki`emo>u eating?
12:20:01] yrcgnil>not yet
12:20:02] maki`emo>or skipping
12:20:03] yrcgnil>later
12:20:05] maki`emo>o
12:20:09] yrcgnil>maybe skipping
12:20:12] yrcgnil>no apetite
12:21:12] maki`emo>hw can u forgive me
12:23:18] maki`emo>dear..
12:23:25] depressed>?
12:23:44] maki`emo>hw can u forgive me
12:24:58] maki`emo>if i land myself in hospital now , will it b different
12:25:23] depressed>what are you thinkg?
12:28:34] maki`emo>nth
12:28:58] maki`emo>wa time u gonna eat
12:29:46] maki`emo>dear?
12:30:15] depressed>?
12:30:17] depressed>dunno
12:30:22] depressed>see first
12:31:24] maki`emo>dear as long as u r there
12:31:34] maki`emo>i love u is dedicated to u
12:32:46] maki`emo>lets abide to e promise hao bu hao
12:32:52] maki`emo>i know i been in wrong
12:33:02] maki`emo>u gotta let me repent for my doings
12:33:45] maki`emo>laopo ke yi ma
12:34:14] depressed>how would i know if you wouldn't revert back
12:34:15] depressed>T_T
12:34:59] maki`emo>im awake from e hibernation
12:35:08] depressed>hibernation?
12:35:14] depressed>since when are you in hibernation?
12:35:37] maki`emo>how u know i wont revert back
12:35:59] maki`emo>u scare i revert back?
12:36:09] depressed>VERY SCARED
12:36:25] maki`emo>i never doubt u
12:36:33] maki`emo>n i always said
12:36:37] maki`emo>nv doubt a maki
12:36:41] depressed>=)
12:36:46] depressed>yeah i know tt
12:37:04] depressed>i'm going out for lunch
12:37:05] depressed>bbl
12:37:09] maki`emo>k
12:37:15] maki`emo>ard wa time back
12:37:25] depressed>dunno
12:37:31] depressed>130 like tt
12:37:38] maki`emo>tell me when u get back ok
12:37:42] maki`emo>enjoy ur meal dear
13:12:04] depressed>back
13:13:31] maki`emo>wa u eat
13:13:50] daedgnil>horfun
13:13:57] daedgnil>later needa puke again le
13:13:59] daedgnil>argh
13:14:07] maki`emo>?
13:14:09] maki`emo>wa happen
13:14:19] maki`emo>e drugs effect?
13:14:33] daedgnil>moi anti-depressant medicine will cause me to puke out whatever i ate
13:15:06] maki`emo>tat med eat b4 meal or after?
13:15:30] daedgnil>once every night b4 sleep
13:15:42] daedgnil>but the side effects will last the whole day
13:15:49] maki`emo>..
13:15:58] maki`emo>no wonder u feel weak
13:16:03] maki`emo>no energy
13:16:41] maki`emo>u dont tink of puke
13:16:43] maki`emo>cant control 1
13:16:49] maki`emo>i mean can
13:17:03] daedgnil>mine will come out itself de
13:17:06] daedgnil>i can't control
13:17:08] daedgnil>T_T
13:17:17] maki`emo>i help u control lo
13:17:19] maki`emo>haha
13:18:00] daedgnil>...
13:18:15] maki`emo>will tk care of u ma
13:18:18] maki`emo>hehe
13:19:50] maki`emo>no more angry or
13:20:10] daedgnil>.
13:20:49] maki`emo>. mean or rite
13:21:24] *dAeDgNiL headache
13:21:26] daedgnil>bbl
13:21:37] maki`emo>k
13:21:50] maki`emo>hw long
13:22:04] daedgnil>dunno
13:22:08] daedgnil>head damn pain
13:22:22] maki`emo>ur med all taken?
13:22:27] daedgnil>nope
13:22:36] daedgnil>i hate med
13:22:39] daedgnil>argh
13:22:41] maki`emo>u must hav miss out
13:22:43] maki`emo>something
13:22:51] maki`emo>i feed u next time
13:22:58] daedgnil>i only missed out moi inhaler
13:23:03] daedgnil>feed me what?
13:23:09] maki`emo>med lo
13:23:11] daedgnil>.
13:23:15] daedgnil>dun nid
13:23:19] daedgnil>bah
13:24:22] maki`emo>y u so harsh to me
13:24:56] daedgnil>harsh?
13:25:16] daedgnil>i i were harsh i wouldn't be talking already...
13:25:17] daedgnil>haiz
13:25:50] maki`emo>o
13:26:07] maki`emo>then dont say nvm n dun nid again
13:26:11] maki`emo>say ok
13:26:12] maki`emo>or ya
13:26:16] daedgnil>.
13:27:55] maki`emo>forgiven granted?
13:28:00] dead->.
13:28:48] maki`emo>dear?
13:28:58] dead->what?
13:29:15] maki`emo>grant ok?
13:29:17] maki`emo>or
13:29:23] dead->no
13:29:40] maki`emo>why
13:30:28] dead->you know how tired i am?
13:30:49] maki`emo>i know
13:30:54] dead->how?
13:31:06] maki`emo>very extreme
13:31:33] dead->do you know tt i am too tired? too tired to the point tt i just feel like dying
13:32:23] maki`emo>u scare i revert is it
13:33:05] dead->tt is one thing i am afraid of
13:33:15] maki`emo>and wads other?
13:33:26] dead->and plus i am very very afraid to be alone
13:33:35] maki`emo>i wont leave u alone
13:33:57] dead->do you know that there were times when you were not at home and i am the only one at home?
13:34:06] dead->do you know how i survived?
13:34:28] dead->i curled moiseld up in a corner and fell asleep until you brp came back
13:34:36] dead->bro*
13:34:40] dead->moiself*
13:34:55] maki`emo>yeah
13:35:05] maki`emo>and tat day u relapse
13:35:12] maki`emo>i throw off my work
13:35:23] maki`emo>n went to hospital
13:35:45] maki`emo>my bro got work early
13:35:49] maki`emo>i send him back
13:36:04] maki`emo>e nurse say u coma
13:36:13] maki`emo>i ask him to call me asap u wake up
13:36:19] maki`emo>he didnt do so
13:36:26] maki`emo>until u came b in e morning
13:36:49] dead->tt's not the only time...
13:37:09] dead->there were times i fainted back at your house when i am alone
13:37:17] maki`emo>dear
13:37:26] maki`emo>we r talking abt now
13:37:28] maki`emo>n future
13:37:43] maki`emo>if u bring up past
13:38:04] dead->then?
13:38:45] maki`emo>we dont live in past
13:38:56] dead->and?
13:38:56] maki`emo>we pave towards future
13:39:58] maki`emo>tat times tat u r alone
13:40:02] maki`emo>i wrking
13:40:06] maki`emo>n came b asap
13:40:08] dead->yeah
13:40:19] dead->tt's why i never told you
13:40:30] maki`emo>but i realise myself
13:40:34] maki`emo>i stop my wrk
13:40:38] maki`emo>but i didnt tell u
13:41:05] dead->why didn't you tell me?
13:41:25] maki`emo>i dont wan u to worry too
13:41:31] maki`emo>liek u do
13:41:34] maki`emo>coz u love me
13:41:38] maki`emo>n i do too
13:42:59] maki`emo>didnt u realise after e incident
13:43:06] maki`emo>i go wrk lesser then no more
13:43:22] dead->which incident?
13:43:33] maki`emo>e above i mention
13:43:39] maki`emo>coz i dont wan u to b alone
13:44:02] maki`emo>i admit i m very into e games
13:45:15] dead->uh huh
13:46:15] maki`emo>dear hw will u forgive me
13:47:28] maki`emo>if i dont care or love
13:47:36] maki`emo>i wont b here trying so hard
13:48:49] maki`emo>dear u there?
13:48:53] dead->ya
13:48:53] dead->ya
13:49:56] maki`emo>i rly trying hard
13:50:16] maki`emo>to go on with our love story
13:51:12] maki`emo>dear u bz?
13:52:08] dead->nope
13:52:11] dead->but very tired
13:52:21] maki`emo>u ok ma
13:52:37] dead->yeah
13:52:43] dead->but head damn dizzy
13:54:02] maki`emo>relax
13:55:25] maki`emo>drink some water
13:56:47] maki`emo>feeling better ma
13:57:49] maki`emo>dear u resting?
14:05:22] dead->bth
14:05:42] maki`emo>?
14:06:05] maki`emo>u scare me sia
14:06:14] maki`emo>u fell aslp?
14:07:30] maki`emo>dear?
14:09:01] maki`emo>dear u bth wa
14:43:48] dead->not fell asleep
14:43:54] dead->i went away from the computer
14:43:58] dead->back to moi seat
14:44:04] dead->to rest
14:44:05] dead->coz
14:44:08] dead->head damn pain
14:44:12] dead->damn dizzy
14:44:25] dead->feels like i'm floating or something
14:44:29] maki`emo>i was worried
14:45:48] maki`emo>i dunno where to dl those funky stuff
14:45:52] maki`emo>only got default 1
14:46:10] dead->huh>
14:46:15] dead->diaoz
14:46:19] maki`emo>e kiss thing lo
14:46:27] *Maki`EMO muacks kelly dear dear
14:46:27] dead->o
14:47:24] dead->you asked louise to call me?
14:47:28] dead->O.o
14:47:32] maki`emo>ya
14:47:41] maki`emo>i tht wa happen to u
14:47:54] maki`emo>u also dont wan ans my calls
14:49:46] izgnil>.
14:54:38] maki`emo>gt feel any better?
14:54:53] izgnil>nope
15:30:28] maki`emo>y u haiz
15:30:40] izgnil>head gonna burst soon
15:31:11] maki`emo>chill abit
15:31:12] maki`emo>relax
15:42:24] maki`emo>dear..
15:42:43] izgnil>?
15:43:06] maki`emo>i wait for u at e same place later
15:43:36] izgnil>dun nid la
15:44:18] maki`emo>i will b there
15:44:23] izgnil>.
15:44:54] maki`emo>k
15:48:38] maki`emo>i still owe u those muacks
15:49:18] maki`emo>rite dear?
15:49:53] maki`emo>?
15:51:00] izgnil>.
15:52:42] maki`emo>u still rem tat time u hide ur past from me
15:52:45] maki`emo>then u told me
15:54:02] maki`emo>rem ma?
15:54:16] izgnil>which paste?
15:54:28] maki`emo>e les thing
15:54:35] izgnil>LOL
15:54:37] izgnil>ya?
15:54:58] maki`emo>i nv depise u or blame u wa
15:55:38] izgnil>then?
15:56:32] maki`emo>u juz dont wan forgive me?
15:57:33] izgnil>u wun be able to take care of me... as what i went thru last time...
15:57:45] maki`emo>hw u know i wont
15:58:13] maki`emo>i trying n u don accept my every effort
15:58:20] izgnil>even though i love you... but haiz...
15:58:47] maki`emo>y cant we cont our storry
15:59:59] maki`emo>i care i cherish i love
16:00:04] maki`emo>tats y i doing all these
16:00:41] maki`emo>i know it wont b ez
16:00:49] maki`emo>but i alrdy decide
16:01:03] maki`emo>but u dont make it so hard ma
16:01:37] maki`emo>dear?
16:20:05] izgnil>?
16:35:34] maki`emo>so
16:42:23] izgnil>?
16:42:26] izgnil>so what?
16:44:06] maki`emo>dont blame her
16:44:09] maki`emo>she trying to help
16:44:25] izgnil>i never blame her
16:44:33] maki`emo>i know
16:44:37] maki`emo>u blame me
16:45:20] maki`emo>wads e main issue
16:45:28] maki`emo>me being engross n neglect u?
16:47:02] maki`emo>dear?
16:47:11] izgnil>yes?
16:52:32] maki`emo>tats e main concern?
16:52:47] izgnil>primarily yes
16:54:27] maki`emo>secondary?
16:57:07] maki`emo>wads e secondary
16:57:25] izgnil>haiz
16:57:30] izgnil>i dunno what to say
16:57:40] izgnil>moi dad hates your hair too =/
16:57:48] maki`emo>..
16:57:55] maki`emo>coz its dyed?
16:58:07] izgnil>he says its too erm... golden
16:58:22] maki`emo>or
16:58:31] maki`emo>note taken
16:58:51] maki`emo>its u
16:58:58] maki`emo>im concern of
16:59:06] izgnil>me?
16:59:10] maki`emo>yes
16:59:46] izgnil>after each time i asked you something all i felt was moi heart had been slowly ripped into bits and pieces
17:00:09] maki`emo>ask me wa
17:00:22] izgnil>alot of things
17:00:23] izgnil>=/
17:00:27] maki`emo>when situation comes
17:00:29] maki`emo>i m so lost
17:00:43] maki`emo>cant speak n tink well
17:01:16] maki`emo>u mean now
17:01:25] maki`emo>regarding to e things u ask?
17:03:07] maki`emo>?
17:04:44] izgnil>nvm already
17:04:51] izgnil>i've got nth to say le
17:05:00] maki`emo>[16:51] but i did ask him b4 he stopped working
17:05:07] maki`emo>if i tell u
17:05:17] maki`emo>u will skip more meals
17:05:24] maki`emo>dont tk money from me
17:05:32] maki`emo>rite?
17:05:56] maki`emo>tat is wa i dont wish to c
17:06:03] maki`emo>so i kept from u
17:06:24] maki`emo>coz i dont wan u to suffer
17:07:22] izgnil>even though you dun say
17:07:31] izgnil>i also refrained from taking money from you
17:07:41] izgnil>unless i really have no choice
17:07:45] maki`emo>at least u wil tk ma

2007-12-30T06:18:00.000+08:00

if only i could turn back time~

if only i could say goodbye~

i'd wish i was never born~

i'd wish how time would not have been short for me~

i'd wish for love~

care~

concern~

Maki, i love you~

truly... madly... deeply~

believe it or not~

its up to you~

my time is limited~

i have been coughing too much~

too much blood~

my mind is in a whirl~

but~

who cares?

hur~

I'm nothing but a speck of dust~

a fallen leaf~

a spilt milk~

loving maki will be difficult for me~

but~

i just can't stop loving him~

b4 i noticed~

he'd already became the air that i breathe~

i love the hugs and kisses~

i love it when he said those three words and whisper them in my ear~

how i'd wish all those times are back~

Where have all the good times gone~

two years in this relationship~

its impossible~

and increasingly difficult to just put it down and go away~

haiz~

i haven't eat much lately~

the moment food goes into my mouth~

i have the urge to puke it all out~

moreover~

i had no money to eat or even go anywhere~

all i had left~

was the 5 bucks left~

from what maki gave me~

i can't eat~

i can't sleep~

i can't do anything~

i kept thinking about maki~

couldn't stop it~

i knew that it'd hurt alot to think about it~

but~

i can't help it~

its like butterflies attracted to fire~

because of the beauty of the fire~

the butterflies are attracted to it~

thus they flew towards it~

even if they knew that they'll be burnt~

just because the fire is too beautiful to resist~

2007-12-29T05:30:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, December 07, 2005
|1:52:00 AM|

hmm...

got back home just now...

lol

i was at kbox today...

it was fun!

lol

at first i dun dare to sing...

scared will tio laughed at...

but until behind...

i start to open up abit...

lolx...

it was hilarious...

haha...

den when i was singing some songs...

someone was staring at me...

den i cover moi face...

dun let tt person see...

haha...

lolx...

damn joke...

I was very happy today...

or should i say its da first time i am so damn happy in moi life...

able to go out have fun with ppl i noe...

being able to laugh...

to be honest...

i almost forgot how to smile or laugh...

until recently...

haha...

hope tt things can be like this forever...

geez...

lolx...

I aM lOsT iN mY oWn WoRlD oF tHoUgHtS...

this whole entire post was taken from my first blog~

on the day we got together~

how could i ever forget this day~

how meaningful it was too me~

2007-12-29T05:29:00.000+08:00

Monday, October 03, 2005
|3:28:00 PM|

HaIz...

WhAt Is TrUe LoVe...?

WhErE aRe YoU?

wIlL i EvEr FiNd YoU?

wIlL i EvEr EvEr KnOw YoU?

dO yOu EvEn ExIsTs?

BuT mOsT iMpOrTaNtLy...

WiLl I eVeR tOuCh LoVe AgAiN?

wIlL i FiNd SoMeOnE wHo CaN fInD mY hEaRt...?

wIlL i FiNd SoMeOnE wHo CaN mEnD mY hEaRt...?

Do I bElIeVe In LoVe AnYmOrE?

i Am In A mEsS...

mY lIfE iS iN a MeSs...

eVeRyThInG sEeMs To Be In DiSoRdEr...

HoW tHe HeLl DiD i SuRvIvE?

i Do NoT kNoW...

lIfE sUcKs...

Do I hAvE tHe WiLl To LiVe AnYmOrE?

i Do NoT kNoW...

wHeRe WiLl I gO?

wHaT wIlL i Do?

WiLl I bE aBlE tO sUrViVe AnYmOrE bLoWs BeInG dEaLt To MoI hEaRt?

WiLl I eNd Up LiKe ThE oPpOnEnT's HeRoEs In DoTa?

WiLl I eVeR hAvE wInGs, Be CaReFrEe AnD fLy To WhErE i LiKe?

I aM lOsT iN mY oWn WoRlD oF tHoUgHtS...

another post i found on my previous blog~

this was posted before i met maki darling~

Reminsce the past

formspring.me

What's the best place near you to get some ice cream?

If you had to perform at the circus, what trick would you do?

How many languages do you speak?

What did you dream about last night?

If you could ask Barack Obama one question what would it be?

What's the worst show on TV?

Do you believe in luck?

Would you rather be really hot or really cold?

Who's the most overrated musician?

If you had to give up one favorite food, what would the most difficult?

If you could attend any concert, what would it be?

What's the longest you've ever gone without a bath or shower?

What was your Lastest cosplay?

What website do you spend the most time on?

Who is your favourite Kpop girl group?

What's the best place near you to get a drink?

If you won a $1,000 shopping spree for any store, which store would you pick?

If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

What's the best gift you've ever given?

If you were given a brand new yacht, what would you name it?

How would you describe yourself in 3 words?

If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

What was the most interesting place you've traveled to?

What was your Lastest cosplay?

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Az Mama ♡ - ♥ ♡ earrings yippeungot ASMAMA ~!

Argh! I'm really getting depressed.

Whee! 4th day at work!

Ya dun want me to message you so much?

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Meow! Sun Shang Xiang!

Why am i feeling so lost and alone? Am

Whee! Posted Directly from Jia Jin's 21s

好烦阿~

Baby alex i'm scared

wootx~!

all the regrets~

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